midnight....

凌晨一两点，我哭着睡着了。。。
枕头也湿了。。。
不知道几点才睡着。。。

....sleep with sadness
tears dropping on my pillow...

dunno tears drop until what time
and i also asleep

*after that i need to wake up go print the stupid acc project!*
*shit*

i cried...

why?
because
-Stress
-Studies
-Love
-Work
-Family
-Friend
-Money
and more...


i feel very tired of those stuff ><
i really dunno what to do =X

who can help me.
ask for ppl help,better than i help myself.

Stress!!!

one word describe for my feeling now.... Stress!!!
Mygosh...im having a bad headache right now!
but i need to redo all in few hour and go to shop and print it out.
i need more time and energy!!!
 im dying soon ><

haiz...
how i wish i have someone who willing to help me right now.
but who will want to help me.
i always help people,but never helped by others :(
i know is impossible la.
go dream la Queenie x(

nights ♥ 28th September 2010

gotta sleep but before that blogging 1st ♥ :D


i need to cut my hair x'(
i dun want !!!
but i need to cut
i will keep it again after i cut...

                                my laptop wallpaper ♥ Hello Kitty ♥




i want to change phone la.
but not enough $
sigh...


iphone,blackberry need to wait until i got $ 1st
or else need to dream for some rich dude buy for me xD


now i using W595pink sony ericson is spoiled!
so im changing to W995pink sony ericson


need to work and might borrow $ from ppl

w595 pink ♥


















w995 pink ♥


gotta off =X
even thought im not sleepy yet.
i wake up at 4pm la.
><"

Happen after 4pm...

haha xD
never go school ><
kena scold again...

sleep and awake few times because of dream.
dunno is dream or nightmare.
haha xD
the dream i remember is my hamster drop inside drain! OMG...of coz im following the water flow and rescue my hamster...end up i success rescue my haster xD haha
another one i remember is i got robe by a man and with a knife....>< scary !!! but i was awake...thanks god

sleep until 4pm only want to get out from my bed.
haha xD im piggy anyway..
so i wash my face on laptop...
hehe xD
then online...decorate blog xD
facebook-ing....chatting with sabby...
after i finish bath saw melvin pop up on my chatbox
ask for my blog link =.=" im so surprise
but i already know what will happen onwards...

bla bla bla...
then i start blogging again xD
cause im not longer to online,i mean facebook for often anymore.
kena nag from parents.
but i will blogging la.

                     ♥ Picture of today -------  i ♥ Blogging 


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ouyssimi

is raining now...

so cold...

need warm...

miss the moment that is sweet for us...

:'(

still got 10 more minutes is our 4th month anniversary ♥

123days ♥

i dunno why always our anniversary day is around the corner

something will happen to us

Why?

i really want to know.

why my frenz with her gf can celebrate until so sweet.

every month they will prepare something for each other.

i really very envy them.

even though they are far apart.

still got a lot of couple

they are so sweet.

why.is that my fault :(

i dunno,maybe is...

just hope that i can heard a word from you now :(

everything will be okayz rite?
*tears dropping*

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About Today :)

Today i sleep for 2hour++ then wake up for skul ><"

damn tired,but still gotta go.

inside the bus i was looking at the moon and the cloud :D

the moon are yellow and the clound is pink xD

reach skul sit at canteen.

dunno think what.then chat with them.

just only crap.

bell rang we all go back class.

in the class im so bored!

what to do.

sigh

no one understand gua.

is okayz for me.

i will take it.

recess time eat with jh and ww.

then go back class.

malay >< do until halfway SLEEP xD

next period...add math >< aww...

my eye keep closing...haha xD

after that is english...trainee teacher....

no need to care!

SLEEP!

not really can sleep...too noisy >< my gosh!

bell rang...after skul...

ml never come so gotta walk to her house alone.

wait jhuey come.

meet her

we go Yippe Cup....

she belanja so good :D

going her house overnight this sunday,monday go out with her,,,

promise her edi :)

after that her grandpa fetch us home.

reach home bath but haven't wash hair....lazy xD haha

then online...

blogging ♥

stalk ppl...only leng luii :)

just saw something that i not really like.

maybe is just my problem la.

ppl tell what is non of my business...

watever la!

im so HUNGRY!

dun like the dishes and no in a good mood too.

doesn't want to eat but hungry :(

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爱Love♥

就算是Believe ，中间还是有个lie ，

就算是Friend ，最后还是会有个end ，

就算是Lover ，最后还是会有个over ♥

even thought is Believe,in between still got a lie,

even thought is Friend,at last still got an end,

even thought is Lover,at last still will have an over. ♥

我找了份兼職，沒有工資，沒有休息日，全天候24小時上班，而且又是我最喜歡的工作，那就是_____ 『想你』 - ♥

I found a job,no salary,no off day,everyday 24 hour working, i also like the job, tat's_____ [missing you] - ♥ 

再好的男人，都不值得妳傷痕累累地去愛；因為真正的好男人，不會讓你傷痕累累...

Love is not how you forget,but How you forgive.

Not how you listen,but How you understand.

Not what you See,but what you Feel.

Not how you let go,but How you hold on.♥ 

爱♥
需要两个人的五十分，才能得到满分。
知道吗 ? 你的五十分 能給我嗎?

Love♥

need 50% from each other,only can get 100% 

you know? Yours 50% can give me?

女 人  ，不  是  闷  了  就  换.。

women , not you feel bored edi then change.

 

男 人 , 不  是  累  了  就  换。

man , not you feel tired edi then change. 

想 告 訴 你 
愛 情 
不 是 等 你 有 空 才 來 珍 惜 的

不 喊 痛

不 代 表 不 痛
不 說 
不 代 表 不 在 乎 
有 時 候 
就 是 因 為 真 的 痛 
真 的 在 乎
才 更 加 沉 默 

just want to tell you

love

is not wait until you feel free only come and cherish it

don't say pain

doesn't mean not pain

don't say

doesn't mean didn't care

sometimes

just only because of the feeling of pain

really care about it

so even more silent

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Problem.....is you or me.... 问题.....是你还是我。。。

today morning i suppose to eat breakfast with my family.
i check my acc project from noon until 6am++
so i move my laptop on the floor and lie down with pillow online.

quite tired.
quite emo.
because of him.
and myself.*cause im stupid* [gotta work hard on it,cause no one will help you,the only one is just Yourself.]

and then online Facebook.
no one online,then decorate blog lorh,confuse then off the laptop.
so thinking something then sleep edi.

*this is the only way i can sleep*
*so i always late for school kena scolded :'(*

thinking of later what he will plan for it.
cause he make me so sad on friday.
so i give him chance.
think think think then sleep edi.


*....phone vibrating*
i wake up and pick up
is He!
call me that he reached my house ><

look at the time
Oh no!
im late...
no one wake me for breakfast.
....
walk out from my room
and ask lil bro,never go eat.
dunno why la.

then i faster go prepare and thinking what should i dress :)
go into his car.
i ask him fetch me print my stupid project.
also ask him where he want to bring me eat.
he say the hailam kopitiam.
not i dun like about the shop,i know i tell him i want to eat but that time is at night time for supper.
is just that a high tea place or supper.
just feel disappointed.

nvm, so i say go print 1st la.then i say change something 1st only go print,
he use his mac open file for me
then we argue about the mac system ><
im speechless.
just dun care and go print.

printing take like half and hour.
stupid shop.the shop i went that day closed.
no choice.

then we still find shop at SS2,he turn turn turn.
im dizzy ><"
he doesn't know.
haiz....
dunno why suddenly i awake and see he at the near section 14 de old town coffee shop.
then i only know i faint jor,he doesn't know gua.
sure think im sleeping.
got a bad haedache after that.

argue-ing in car again.
cry so many time today.
means that im very sad.

so i get down the car say :"just go eat la"
i bang until the car door,cause the parking place is slanting road.
omg damn pain!

suddenly my mind tell me walk back home.
so i walk and walk.
he came and find me.
say he fetch me home.
on the way he say again to me
"what you want me to do"
always tell me like that when im sad.

on the way fetch me i ask him go buy coke for me.
gastric ><
so gotta drink.in the car with him he go to petrol station and buy and also buy food.
the food is 'currypop' & 'Chinese cai gui'
i dun eat!
and hardly eat! why he keep make me piss off and sad those shit stuff.
im very disappointed of today.
so Speechless.

dun feel like blogging.but i will blogging everyday.
so i delay delay delay then blogging.

dunno what to write...
haiz...


after that i come back home.
cook an egg and eat,then on9 blogging but end up emo until sleep.
so midnight only write.
*now la is 2:27am* ><omg skul tomolo!

summarize 1st...
i want to sleep on my bed.

after that i sleep about 2 hour and wake up.headache and dizzy.
almost fall down ><
drink a cup of water then online.
saw his blog, cry again :'(


really dunno how to say,i will blog that feeling soon...

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why?

i really dunno you.
also dunno what you thinking.


off your phone edi,
you never call back or find me.
haiz

feel so down today : (
lifeless
emo
sienz
lonely
moody

just want to have a small wish.
haiz
nevermind la.

it couldn't happen to me.
why am i so naive?

maybe im not so into you.
am i?

afternoon read a note about a girl real story.
before read that, i had heard or saw before too.

now im worry too.
they express until so true and real.
i really dunno what will happen at the next second ...?

Again and again...

.....

haiz...

again and again...

i hate it!

Liar...

sobbing...

:'(

HE 他

HE.
his is my sweetheart.
today is friday and is the 1st post that post on my bloggie.
my bloogie is about finish decorating but i still want to wait until is PERFECT.
but too bad i haven't done then i start blogging jor.
thx to HIM!




evening he call me and tell me he cannot go,
my brain suddenly kena shock like that,
after that i think he is joking,then he is joking la.
so bad :( heng!

then i faster prepare lorh.
wait wait wait....


while waiting suddenly i saw the time is 9:00pm edi.
think back he say he coming and also call mervyn go is 7:24pm.


just realize that i wait for 1:30hour!
kinda sad after that i heard outside is raining and the cloud turn dark too.
waiting that time i was at my house back gate there look at the SKY.
so nice and is moving. the moment i feel so peaceful :)

after that 9something my phone 'tok' is my msg ringtone.
he reach edi.
then i go out,my stupid big brother so sampat on the outside light and see.
im already sad and angry.
he somemore like that.
then i walk to my room and take the laptop go also.
then i go in his car.
i am so Piss Off! feel so "kek sam"-means sam tong aka heart pain.
haiz

Raining...
look at the the rain drops on the car window.
he forget to fetch me go SS2.
haiz
then im so piss off and tell him.
on the way go SS2 is quite jam la.
there memang jam one,and some more raining.
he was sad keep say haiz in the car.
because he make until me wait.
and say mervyn fault.
i dunno la.
at least tell me u are late la.
some more say go fetch mervyn 1st only come.

reach SS2 the shop closed ><"
haiz.

then go Mid-Valley .
keep want to hold my hand.
but im not happy,still want like that!
can't he do something.
always like that :(

Stupid


then wanna go buy hamster food but the shop also closed edi.
of cause la.
is about 10pm edi.
obviously is closed larh.
another haiz...

then he go find mervyn, cause he go queue for buying ticket at GSC.

he ask me what i want to eat.
but already no mood to eat,not feeling hungry.


*while writing all this i leave my burger and nescafe original a side ><*
*the burger it's cold!"  :(
*aww*
*and now im suffering in gastric pain*


then went to carlsjunior eat,i walked away.
thought he din realize.
so i just walk to gardens starbucks.
while inside the car i feel like having cold drinks to chill.
ya,i forget to write.
i cried in the car too.
dunnno why my tears dropping automatically :'(
thx to him again....


he got realize i was not following him
then come and find me and ask me.
then i say i want go Starbucks.
so i call him teman mervyn,no need teman me.
then he say "im his girlfriend,of cause teman me"
then i say "mervyn is your brother ma."
then he say "come on la"
when he always say this or write this
i really hate it!
then i stop the conversation edi.

sobbing and keep walking ....
reach Starbucks edi.
ohmygosh -.-"
so many ppl and all the table is seated by human.
then we queue for ordering.
while queue-ing i look around,
MAC,all the ppl who always at Starbucks is using it.
rich ppl ma,some more Starbucks is also quite high class place larh.
too bad im NOT.
haiz.
 then i dunno choose what?
chocolate chips or green tea?
both also nice :9
im sweating too.is so HOT.
no aircond cause is closing soon.

at last i choose green tea.
wanted to pay,then he pay for me.
so smart pass to the waitress hand.
heng.

then wait again for the drinks.
he help me take straw.
after that my drinks is here.
i take few piece tissue paper to hold the drinks.
cause is cold.

then walk back to Mid-Valley find mervyn.
at carlsjunior there seating.
then suddenly he walk away thought he go washroom.
after that i feel why so long never come back.
i start worry and ask mervyn,
mervyn say he go take something.
then i say orh.

still worrying about him ><
thinking something that is negative things ><

call him also never pick up.
eat my$
left few sen only.
he reply a ?
 stupid !
then i reply him larh.
ask him where are you?
he never answer me just reply coming back soon.
and ask why?
then is stop reply him and feel better edi.
nothing happen to him.

then he came back with the ticket.
i was "huh"?
then i ask them.
not buy edi meh.
he say no place coz melvin also joining then no seat for 4ppl.
then melvin is not coming -.-
so he buy again.

after eating,ask me want pool.
lolz
im not in mood la.
fool

then we go there....
the malay song plying is so f**king annoying!
at last they got change song.
thx god x)

wait for their table.
i on9 awhile with laptop.
then wait finally their turn.
then i off.
see them awhile lo.
 then i ask mervyn borrow his iphone ply.
then finish their pool we go watch movie.

never buy things go in.
i also quite surprise.
i also no mood eat.

we watch Donnie Yen movie xD
he is so HANDSOME larh ><

-too much to write later continue-
 gotta eat 1st! call him see 1st...

just finish eating a cold burger ><
continue writing...

can't find a photo of Donnie Yen
the picha is so f**king  SEXY & HOT.
i bet u saw will SHOUT! 
i will find it and post it la xD


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here is the movie wallpaper xD

go google search but forget the movie wallpaper look like how ><
so many of it.
so i choose this one!
Donnie Yen.
i love him
i like this kind of guy.
gimme feel so safety.and he make me feel like have some dirty thinking :P
his body xD
omfg larh ><
i can die of it! if he say he want to marry me xD
haha xD impossible larh :(
the ip man movie character he is so NICE :)

while watching,i got cry lorh.
im very easy to cry.

he got cover my eye larh.
ya, we seat the 1st row -.-"
so hard to see.
the ending quite no sense lorh.
i think got 2nd gua?
wish got larh.
i willl go watch.
Donnie Yen is a Good Actor xD
quite a PERFECT GUY for me :P

after watching we go back home.
while his is driving.
i feel weird why my bag keep touch untill my leg.
><
thought make until him driving.
then i think think think.
eh his car is auto la.
then i saw his hand want take something from my bag.
thought he want to steal my pendrive help me print.
then his hand is holding something at handbrake there.
then i go touch feel something inside.
 i go check my bag. nothing lost.
 erm.....i think i guess until what is he holding.
so i quite happy la.
but not so happy.
 it is not SURPRISE.

always like that :(
is i too smart leh or he is stupid?
i dunno larh ><?
then i steal it and see.
he bought a new one for me :)



but....he bought wrong ><" is male one.
so disappointed :'(
he dun remember my ring looks like how,
and he say the seller say is female one.
haiz

sad  :(

why can't he say some nice word.
can say forget the old one, and buy the male one cause we got the same ring ><


WHY? 




anyway thank you Bii :')
i know u want me be happy :D
but sometime i do really get hurt of it or disappointed of it.
you understand?

feel like always im the one who get sad more than you and im the one always just forgive you.
and u never do anything to me :'(

i very easy to "tam" only ma.
always say u dunno.
haiz


stop saying this.
make me feel so down everytime :'(

after that i call him go see the burger stall still open bo.
if got i want to buy,
i dun feel like eating but i worry my stomach.
so go buy la.
is still open.

after that i reach home.
i give back him the ring.
then he want to help me put.
i dun want.
so i just put inside my bag la.
and get down the car, he want to hold me.
but i din choi him.


no KISS !!!

*aww*

somemore mervyn is in the car.
so i won't do that.
so i was very disappointed & sad back to the house :(
then i very emo.
actually i dunno what is the feeling la.
is so complicated >.<

then i want to write it out la.
on my bloogie.
thx to him la.
make me so fast blogging ><
ppl want to choose a good day to start it.


i think this is enough edi la.

So.....

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